You Pulled the Dead Man Out of Me

Rock Bottom

On November of 2011, I was sitting in my apartment contemplating my broken, hurt, depressed life after, my then spouse, kicked me out of the house. I was dying in every area of my life, even physically. My obesity was spinning me out of control. I was burnt out with life, people, ministry, and alone. I never even left the confines of the apartment for that first month. My mother commented that I should really get out of my apartment and start my car.  My response was “What for?!”

Feeling like my whole world had fallen apart and there was no reason to go on. Why in the world would I want to leave the safety and comfort of my personal fortress of solitude? I was in a very, very dark place of my life. I was a dead man in a prison of bondage that I had allowed to happen.

Dead man Arising

Months later I was still in a brooding mess. I had no hope, no future, and not sure where or what I was doing with my life. As I sat on the living room floor I had opened my Bible and as tears rolled down my cheeks I said, “God help me.. I want to live.” That night I had an encounter that changed my life forever. Like Lazarus,  I too had the dead man pulled out of me, and I was a NEW man never to look back. I finally had hope and a future again. I could feel the bondage dissolve off of me and the process of wholeness taking place. This has not been an overnight instant fix, but YES, an accelerated journey into becoming whole and not that ole fat man I use to be. I am awake, alive, and want to help others experience that same life-giving, life-transforming power of God that I had experienced that night on the floor.

Lazarus Come Out

The story of Lazarus is a great story with transferable principles for everyone’s life.

You have Lazarus’s family and mourners saying things about the lateness of Jesus.  Jesus was not late. He showed up at the perfect time when Lazarus had already been dead four days, so that the rising of Lazarus would be so powerful that no one would ever doubt that Jesus is Lord. Even death itself has no power over God.

Then you have the people freaking out because Jesus told them to roll away the stone.  This was a huge deal because you don’t break the seal on a sealed tomb because the body was already starting to decay and stink.

Again, Jesus is not affected by the people’s unbelief because all is being done, so they know that might believe.  What is super interesting is that after Jesus shouts,” Lazarus come out!”  He then tells the people to go down, unbind him, and let him go. When I read this account in John 11, I identify with the whole story especially the “unbind him and let him go.” For me this phrase has been the process of becoming who I am today.


I would love to tell you that since that encounter with the power of God on January 5, 2012. I have been perfect in every aspect of my journey, but the truth is it has been a long, yet accelerated process of laying down old habits and creating new ones. I am learning I can’t do this on my own, and I need His help daily. It’s not about what I want anymore,but what He wants for me.  He has given me my life back a new life, a real life, a TRUE LIFE. None of the past old life stuff either, but all NEW.  Daily I am becoming a trophy of His amazing grace.  I know firsthand that He can and is willing to help you, too. All you have to do is call out to Him, and let Him begin to change you from the inside out. Comment below if this has helped you.